Some of you guys in your late fifties and early sixties talk as if you're already dead, or are simply dead-in-waiting.
Actually most of us aren't...I think I'm probably the only one really feeling my mortality and I have good reason to.
Lifetime smoker and by the time I quit, the damage has already been done, Type 2 diabetes, I can feel my hips turning to mush just getting in and out of the car, and I was a major league crackhead for about ten years and got clean 25 years ago but again, the damage was done.
Up until about age 53 I never got sick, never got winded, never anything at all. I didn't even become overweight until starting around 50 or so, I was five eight, 185 and all muscle. I was a beast. All of this just started happening at once, lightning fast.
In 2015 I wound up in the hospital with a case of bronchitis that turned into pneumonia and that was a two week stay but even once I got back home I was out of commission for another two months or more. I could barely walk, barely breathe, couldn't concentrate, couldn't sleep and suddenly I started packing on the pounds and I wasn't even eating that much.
And then not even six months later I got it again, this time it was even worse ... another two week stay in the hospital and another three months like a walking corpse. And then the floaters in my eyes came, my hearing, which wasn't the greatest, really got bad and all of a sudden my knees and ankles were just...."GONE".
And I'm 230 pounds now and I've counted calories, I think I hover around 1500-2000 tops daily.
And I can't do voice over work anymore because my lung capacity is too shot to go to the end of a paragraph without sucking in my breath.
I still have my strength...last time we had to move furniture around I had no problem lugging everything around but I had to take a break to catch my breath. I could lift anything but just not for an eternity like I used to.
It's all my fault, I take full responsibility for being a Hollywood jackwagon.