Yep, Jesus said that if you want the law and its condemnation (a curse Paul calls it), I'm not going to prevent you from condemning yourself. But if you want grace, I stand at the door and knock.
Sound like you've chosen the Law and its condemnation. Poor choice.
Romans 7:4 - Likewise, my
brethren, you have died to the law
through the body of Christ, so that
you may belong to another, to him
who has been raised from the dead
in order that we may bear fruit for
God.
Romans 7:6 - But now we are
discharged from the law, dead to
that which held us captive, so that
we serve not under the old written
code but in the new life of the Spirit.
Galatians 2:19 - For I through the
law died to the law, that I might live
to God.
Galatians 3:10 - For all who rely
on works of the law are under a
curse; for it is written, "Cursed be
every one who does not abide by all
things written in the book of the law,
and do them."
Galatians 3:23 - Now before
faith came, we were confined under
the law, kept under restraint until
faith should be revealed
Galatians 5:4 - You are severed
from Christ, you who would be
justified by the law; you have fallen
away from grace.
Galatians 5:18 - But if you are
led by the Spirit you are not under
the law.
Ephesians 2:15 - by abolishing
in his flesh the law of
commandments and ordinances,
that he might create in himself one
new man in place of the two, so
making peace,
James 1:25 - But he who looks
into the perfect law, the law of
liberty, and perseveres, being no
hearer that forgets but a doer that
acts, he shall be blessed in his
doing.
James 2:10 - For whoever keeps
the whole law but fails in one point
has become guilty of all of it.