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Progress? Mental Breakdown? What am I experiencing Here?

truthatallcost said:
I'm being sincere here, I think I'm done with politics. It brings out the worst in me I think. I need to concentrate on doing something positive, hopefully helping other people in some way. I used to hope I'd get banned from here, just so I wouldn't fall into the same temptation of using this forum as a platform to vent onto others, as I knew it wasn't right even then.
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It sounds like you're going through a personal journey through the deep and dark woods. Take your time, then. There is a path in there somewhere.
 
truthatallcost said:
Over the past two weeks I've been experiencing a change that I can't quite figure out. It began when my dad, who is 65, had a health scare, and it looked like he might not make it. Thank God he did pull through and is on the mend now, but it seemed to trigger a mental change in me. I began to go through insomnia, losing a few hours of sleep each night, which progressed to eventually literally not sleeping 3 nights in a row. Not even a brief doze. I had to take time off from work because I couldn't concentrate.
During the worst of the insomnia, I was filled with deep regret for all the people I'd ever harmed in my life, some from this website. Especially the ones I'd said the meanest things to, like Serenity, Chagos, Captain Courtesy,Hatuey, Dianna and Janfu. I apologize for being an asshole at times.

I've come to realize in the past several days that politics isn't that important to me, and is probably a distraction from the real meaning of life, which I'm trying to figure out here.

Damn, I've made myself vulnerable here, which I painstakingly try to avoid, and I realize some of you would be well within your rights to tell me to F off.

What do you think? Any comments are welcome.
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It might be time to start taking long walks in the woods or the countryside. Turn the cellphone off and stop watching the screens. Talk to God while you are alone, and reconnect with the present moment.

I'm glad your dad is okay.
 
truthatallcost said:
Over the past two weeks I've been experiencing a change that I can't quite figure out. It began when my dad, who is 65, had a health scare, and it looked like he might not make it. Thank God he did pull through and is on the mend now, but it seemed to trigger a mental change in me. I began to go through insomnia, losing a few hours of sleep each night, which progressed to eventually literally not sleeping 3 nights in a row. Not even a brief doze. I had to take time off from work because I couldn't concentrate.
During the worst of the insomnia, I was filled with deep regret for all the people I'd ever harmed in my life, some from this website. Especially the ones I'd said the meanest things to, like Serenity, Chagos, Captain Courtesy,Hatuey, Dianna and Janfu. I apologize for being an asshole at times.

I've come to realize in the past several days that politics isn't that important to me, and is probably a distraction from the real meaning of life, which I'm trying to figure out here.

Damn, I've made myself vulnerable here, which I painstakingly try to avoid, and I realize some of you would be well within your rights to tell me to F off.

What do you think? Any comments are welcome.
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Probably should have posted this in the Tavern. It's safer than other areas, especially if you are looking for people to give you constructive feedback. As for my perception, when someone apologizes and says they're trying to change after behaving so badly, I play the "wait and see" game. You and I have gotten along in the past, so that does give me some hope. On the other side of that, some of your behaviors have been reprehensible, and as a cynic, I tend not to trust people. So, I'll just wait and see.
 
X Factor said:
Well, you’re saying you’re tired of politics or whatever but that doesn’t say you’ve actually changed your mind about anything.
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I don't think it's a mutually exclusive thing. TAAC may have changed his priorities, or how he chooses to view certain issues.
That may or may not affect whether he is pro or con on some of them, but it may well change how tightly he is cemented to a certain view.

I might have been dead set against something in the past, but over a period of time I may have to a point where I am still not enamored of something, but I just don't really think it is important enough to push back that hard against it anymore.
 
truthatallcost said:
Over the past two weeks I've been experiencing a change that I can't quite figure out. It began when my dad, who is 65, had a health scare, and it looked like he might not make it. Thank God he did pull through and is on the mend now, but it seemed to trigger a mental change in me. I began to go through insomnia, losing a few hours of sleep each night, which progressed to eventually literally not sleeping 3 nights in a row. Not even a brief doze. I had to take time off from work because I couldn't concentrate.
During the worst of the insomnia, I was filled with deep regret for all the people I'd ever harmed in my life, some from this website. Especially the ones I'd said the meanest things to, like Serenity, Chagos, Captain Courtesy,Hatuey, Dianna and Janfu. I apologize for being an asshole at times.

I've come to realize in the past several days that politics isn't that important to me, and is probably a distraction from the real meaning of life, which I'm trying to figure out here.

Damn, I've made myself vulnerable here, which I painstakingly try to avoid, and I realize some of you would be well within your rights to tell me to F off.

What do you think? Any comments are welcome.
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My comment runs along the lines of your second but last paragraph, last two words.

Beyond which you're not important enough to me to care and, I'll add, not important enough to wish you ill either.

In the spirit of which, I wish your Dad all the best.
 
truthatallcost said:
I'm being sincere here, I think I'm done with politics. It brings out the worst in me I think. I need to concentrate on doing something positive, hopefully helping other people in some way. I used to hope I'd get banned from here, just so I wouldn't fall into the same temptation of using this forum as a platform to vent onto others, as I knew it wasn't right even then.
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Well, no reason to give up on it already. Apart from doing the one or other here some good (real or perceived), it might actually benefit YOU.

Trouble with internet forums generally being that one can assess others only on their words, there are exceptions when one can actually go by their deeds.

Just think of what an opportunity this could be.
 
truthatallcost said:
Over the past two weeks I've been experiencing a change that I can't quite figure out. It began when my dad, who is 65, had a health scare, and it looked like he might not make it. Thank God he did pull through and is on the mend now, but it seemed to trigger a mental change in me. I began to go through insomnia, losing a few hours of sleep each night, which progressed to eventually literally not sleeping 3 nights in a row. Not even a brief doze. I had to take time off from work because I couldn't concentrate.
During the worst of the insomnia, I was filled with deep regret for all the people I'd ever harmed in my life, some from this website. Especially the ones I'd said the meanest things to, like Serenity, Chagos, Captain Courtesy,Hatuey, Dianna and Janfu. I apologize for being an asshole at times.

I've come to realize in the past several days that politics isn't that important to me, and is probably a distraction from the real meaning of life, which I'm trying to figure out here.

Damn, I've made myself vulnerable here, which I painstakingly try to avoid, and I realize some of you would be well within your rights to tell me to F off.

What do you think? Any comments are welcome.
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Human beings will be affected in ways that crack through their shell and force them to reevaluate the ways they typically behave toward other people. I have these moments too and they can be painful because I realize I've allowed myself to be pulled into a kind of dynamic that causes me to behave in ways that I don't want others to view me. I'm contrarian by nature, and there's nothing necessarily wrong with that in and of itself, but there's a positive and a toxic way to go about it. The important thing is to not bury whatever realizations you have, but to act on them and be the kind of person you want to be remembered for.
 
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SoulFire77 said:
It might be time to start taking long walks in the woods or the countryside. Turn the cellphone off and stop watching the screens. Talk to God while you are alone, and reconnect with the present moment.

I'm glad your dad is okay.
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Thanks man, great advice. I'm going to limit how much time I spend on DP, as well as online.
 
CaptainCourtesy said:
Probably should have posted this in the Tavern. It's safer than other areas, especially if you are looking for people to give you constructive feedback. As for my perception, when someone apologizes and says they're trying to change after behaving so badly, I play the "wait and see" game. You and I have gotten along in the past, so that does give me some hope. On the other side of that, some of your behaviors have been reprehensible, and as a cynic, I tend not to trust people. So, I'll just wait and see.
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I'm a bit of a cynic myself, but that's the side of myself I really want to change. I feel like cynicism has held me back at this point.
 
truthatallcost said:
Over the past two weeks I've been experiencing a change that I can't quite figure out. It began when my dad, who is 65, had a health scare, and it looked like he might not make it. Thank God he did pull through and is on the mend now, but it seemed to trigger a mental change in me. I began to go through insomnia, losing a few hours of sleep each night, which progressed to eventually literally not sleeping 3 nights in a row. Not even a brief doze. I had to take time off from work because I couldn't concentrate.
During the worst of the insomnia, I was filled with deep regret for all the people I'd ever harmed in my life, some from this website. Especially the ones I'd said the meanest things to, like Serenity, Chagos, Captain Courtesy,Hatuey, Dianna and Janfu. I apologize for being an asshole at times.

I've come to realize in the past several days that politics isn't that important to me, and is probably a distraction from the real meaning of life, which I'm trying to figure out here.

Damn, I've made myself vulnerable here, which I painstakingly try to avoid, and I realize some of you would be well within your rights to tell me to F off.

What do you think? Any comments are welcome.
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Just off the top of my head, it seems to me that your feelings have more to do with you and your dad than they have to do with you and anybody here. Or at least they should. One of the hard truths I've learned in this lifetime is that a lot of the time the people whose opinions you value are not worth the value you give them. You're better off cultivating relationships with family, less so with friends, and even less so with acquaintances. Family will or won't act like it, people who want to be friends with you will be, people who insist on getting something from you first (like expecting you to kiss their asses) aren't worth the bother.

I was telling someone a couple of weeks ago about my grandchildren (I am about your dad's age) and we eventually decided that having children and especially grandchildren is like being in love. I never really stopped loving my wife (an I mean that in a teenage infatuation sort of way) and it's true. My oldest grandchild is an adult girl, and although she pisses me off at times we still have a strange relationship - we are more like BFF than father/daughter or grandfather/granddaughter. She calls me up and fills me in on all of the latest family gossip and news and talking to her and being with her is a joy. I know you're not supposed to have favorites but she is my favorite.

There is nobody here who even comes close to that. It's the same with my wife, my brother, my children and stepchildren. If one of them had had a health crisis, the last thing in the world I'd be worried about would be something I said to anybody here, I don't think the people who insult you and me give it a second thought. Take care of the things you have control over.

Finally, there is 1 John 1:9:

"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."

Go in peace
 
truthatallcost said:
Over the past two weeks I've been experiencing a change that I can't quite figure out. It began when my dad, who is 65, had a health scare, and it looked like he might not make it. Thank God he did pull through and is on the mend now, but it seemed to trigger a mental change in me. I began to go through insomnia, losing a few hours of sleep each night, which progressed to eventually literally not sleeping 3 nights in a row. Not even a brief doze. I had to take time off from work because I couldn't concentrate.
During the worst of the insomnia, I was filled with deep regret for all the people I'd ever harmed in my life, some from this website. Especially the ones I'd said the meanest things to, like Serenity, Chagos, Captain Courtesy,Hatuey, Dianna and Janfu. I apologize for being an asshole at times.

I've come to realize in the past several days that politics isn't that important to me, and is probably a distraction from the real meaning of life, which I'm trying to figure out here.

Damn, I've made myself vulnerable here, which I painstakingly try to avoid, and I realize some of you would be well within your rights to tell me to F off.

What do you think? Any comments are welcome.
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Sometimes being close to the edge shows what's really important in your life, like your dad and having compassion for other people. Life takes a long time.

You're doing fine if you're reflecting and changing.

Merry Christmas.
 
truthatallcost said:
Over the past two weeks I've been experiencing a change that I can't quite figure out. It began when my dad, who is 65, had a health scare, and it looked like he might not make it. Thank God he did pull through and is on the mend now, but it seemed to trigger a mental change in me. I began to go through insomnia, losing a few hours of sleep each night, which progressed to eventually literally not sleeping 3 nights in a row. Not even a brief doze. I had to take time off from work because I couldn't concentrate.
During the worst of the insomnia, I was filled with deep regret for all the people I'd ever harmed in my life, some from this website. Especially the ones I'd said the meanest things to, like Serenity, Chagos, Captain Courtesy,Hatuey, Dianna and Janfu. I apologize for being an asshole at times.

I've come to realize in the past several days that politics isn't that important to me, and is probably a distraction from the real meaning of life, which I'm trying to figure out here.

Damn, I've made myself vulnerable here, which I painstakingly try to avoid, and I realize some of you would be well within your rights to tell me to F off.

What do you think? Any comments are welcome.
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You should take a break from this forum.

True, there are more important things in life that arguing about politics.

But, your self-reflection is a healthy thing, everyone should take stock of themselves and what they do and say and how they act towards others, from time to time.
 
X Factor said:
Turns out I had good reason for my skepticism.
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Indeed.

Anyone still in doubt over the poster's earnestness here (better said, total lack of it) just needs to view his posting behaviour since.

Leopards are more likely to change their spots than racist bigots their outlook or those who lie habitually their lack of credibility.
 
I join other members (and guests) in wishing you, the OP, the very best.

In reality, we all are like you: Only the personal actually matters in this brief nightmare called "life."
 
ecofarm said:
What about Jews, Muslims and other minority groups?
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SIAP. What does feeling for these groups listed in your post have to do with the thread?
 
cabse5 said:
SIAP. What does feeling for these groups listed in your post have to do with the thread?
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I was asking the OP about his feelings regarding other groups. If he had found his hatred of them to be dissatisfying. He said he had lost his hate for them, but then he went right back to posting antisemitism and Islamophobia.

It appears the death of his father only knocked the nazi out of him for a couple days.

Quite the frightfully embarrassing little meltdown for the guy. He admitted a multitude of bigotries and then returned to them.

Now he can't claim "oh, I'm just ignorant and stupid!" He knows what he's doing. He chose hate.
 
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ecofarm said:
I was asking the OP about his feelings regarding other groups. If he had found his hatred of them to be dissatisfying. He said he had lost his hate for them, but then he went right back to posting antisemitism and Islamophobia.

It appears the death of his father only knocked the nazi out of him for a couple days.

Quite the frightfully embarrassing little meltdown for the guy. He admitted a multitude of bigotries and then returned to them.

Now he can't claim "oh, I'm just ignorant and stupid!" He knows what he's doing. He chose hate.
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Did TAAC post his dad died?
 
Trippy Trekker said:
Did TAAC post his dad died?
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I guess I didn't read carefully, or perhaps there was another "I'm done being a hateful bigot" thread.

Anyway, it's back to hate groups for him. His avatar is a racist hate group.
 
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