Thank you.
Everyone just gets worn out after a while. You always know there's something wrong but damnit - it's just exhausting to focus on all the time.
For one: you're never truly 'healed' - you're always in a state of 'coping'.
For another: it's constant - or random and sporadic. After time everyone involved just gets exhausted with the whole thing, especially the one who's sick.
I can't blame my husband for getting tired of appointments, questions, unease, therapy, pills - repeat. When he relapses it starts with him not going to an appointment or two because he has other things he wants to do with his time.
I have a hard time holding him to it, I really do - because I always feel like he and we have gone through enough of the 'treatment' and need a break . . . but there is no break. It's not like a broken leg that gets better - it's a disease that has no cure.
And repeat - and repeat . . . it's just endless. Time doesn't seem to diminish it, either. In fact, I think time makes it worse because then other health problems develop and worsen. My husband at first ONLY had mental health issues and some physical injuries to recover from.
Now his mental issues have worsened. He has breathing, neurological and psychological, physical, intestinal and cardiac issues. It's like his body is breaking down piece by piece and that's making all of his mental issues MUCH worse.