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and we don't even know it. In my opinion, we are so adamant in our views, and refuse to open up to new ideas because deep down, we are so afraid that the idea will shake the identity we have constructed and maintained for ourselves. That a new idea may challenge the "truth" about who we think we are. And that is terrifying to us. It is the fear of the unknown. "You mean I really don't know myself? After all these years? How can that be? BAH! it's impossible! It's absurd!"
squid you really need to speak for your self. I opened up that new idea, i dated a woman for three damn years, i tried to make it work. I have seen for myself that the truth was there all along. I identified for 8 years as a bisexual man, I tried to be, I didn't just talk, I walked the walk. The new idea was that I was gay, not bisexual. So don't tell me about fear, don't tell me that I am not open to that idea, you think you are the first person to ever come up with it.
My entire world was turned upside down my psyche was hammered with depression euphoria exasperation and then finally profound bewilderment. All my dreams died, everything in my life was chaos. Then I let go of it, instantly i felt peace met the love of my life and simply adjusted to the fact that I did not know myself before now I do, I dreamt dreams better than the old ones found my passion discovered my nature and realized how little I know.
If you just went through that Epiphany I am glad for you. But i don't simply talk about it. My construct was actually challenged. My identity was turned inside out and stood on it's head.
Your crap is a regression for me. Going backward is fatal. I discovered my true self on the brink of the abyss. I was there at the end moments from a miserable death I abandoned my notions of reality, I let go of everything, my opinions my likes and dislikes my reality. I had to it was killing me i was mere seconds away from a self inflected death.
Blinding emotional pain has a tendency to rewrite reality. So save your breath I came to a different conclusion, that's all. Your way is dead wrong I said it a thousand times if i said it once it nearly cost me everything. But if that works for you than go on. Don't sit here and attempt to tell me how outis not when i lived it.