The most frightened I had ever been was with MDMA. I don't do drugs... but I have before... could count the number of times on one hand I smoked weed, and I did MDMA 3 times over the course of 5 years in college....nothing else
never again....
I was at a music festival with friends... called Tomorroworld(it actually got bankrupt now so they don't have it anymore) And a friend of mine offered it to me... and I usually decline, but Idk I had it 2 times before and it was perfectly fine, so whynot? I rarely ever do anything...
My body overeacted to it... I don't know how much I took, but no more than my friends. I felt like I took 5 red bulls and injected them into my bloodstream. I was so amped up, I was checking my pulse and it was no slower than 200 bpm... and at times higher...
I didn't make a scene, but I was in a huge crowd and was in just utter internal suffering and horror... the feeling of not being able to relax no matter what I did, no matter what I thought.. really got me. I retreated to outside the huge crowd, and just played the waiting game and debating on whether I should seek first aid. It eventually died down...
for the first month after the incident I had a panic attack at least 4 times a day... never had a panic attack in my life. What happened was, I think, is whenever my heartrate elevated beyond bare minimum pulse, my body would freak out. for 3 months straight I had a panic attack almost daily until it started to go away. Also during this time I had extreme head fog, and I felt like I was outside by body looking in.
don't play games with the brain kids...
I think I honestly had some form of PSTD from the experience. It made me realize what a panic attack actually was, before I never really understood... it's a completely involuntary action, outside your thoughts... your body just decides to go into panic mode for no reason at all. I could even appear 100% calm, but inside by body would be in panic.