Then I heard the loudest silence I ever heard. I looked down Broadway and coming rolling up toward me was the biggest blackest cloud of death I had ever seen in my life. Things were swirling in it, around it, through it. I thought to myself “Here comes death and this is what it looks like”. I looked down Fulton, and death was rolling up it as well, like a demonic wave of doom, focused on two approaching sides upon our corner. The cloud was several stories high. I started to yell to the civilians on the street, but couldn’t hear my own voice. That surprised me, for my yells can be very loud, and here it was as if nothing. I began to jump up and down, pointing with two flailing arms, motioning to the hundreds of people coming up Fulton and down Broadway to run. I was yelling for them to run under the building’s overhang.... it honestly didn’t occur to me to send them INTO the building. Over and over I screamed “Get under the building!!” I decided I would stay on my doomed corner until either wave of death hit, and then I would duck behind a police van which happened to be parked on the northeast corner nearby. I remember screaming so loud I was hurting my throat, pointing, jumping, terrified folks running past me as fast as they could. I remember a cameraman there and I’ve seen his footage on the news. You never do hear my voice, or see me, except when the cloud hit you can see a pair of white pumps under a police van’s bumper.
(Recently, a second video from that corner surfaced and I could hear myself screaming, but it just sounded like a crazy person, and you couldn't tell I was actually speaking words.)
Then, the cloud hit us hard.
When the cloud hit, most of the people had not only made it under the overhang, but had run into the bank nearby. I’m glad I was able to steer them to a safe place at least.......
The swirling black cloud descended lethally upon us with a monsoon of debris and the blackest black I’ve ever seen. Even a moonless night offered no comparison, nor did an unlit room at night. The total darkness was impenetrable. I put my hand in front of my face and I could see nothing. I figured then a nuclear weapon had been detonated on the south end of Manhattan.. No one ever said or suggested the towers might fall and it wasn’t even a consideration. Everyone was thinking we were nuked.
Sharing that police van’s bumper with me was one of the few civilians left outside, and the cops were still on the corner as well. I don’t know what happened to the FBI officer. One of the cops was yelling direction to all who were still outside. “Breathe through your clothes, BREATHE THROUGH YOUR CLOTHES” he would say over and over again. I tried it both ways and breathing either way pretty much sucked. My lungs were so incredibly filled with crap it seemed impossible to breathe normally and it was all I could do to set up a rhythm. Fight for air and breathe, breathe, spit debris out.. breathe, breathe, spit..... on and on, over and over, and I had to fight for each and every one. I was still wearing my sunglasses and because of that my eyes were spared from most of the debris kicking around. I kept opening them to check out the intensity of the darkness.... but it stayed black and absolute for quite a while, the only sound the cop coaching our breathing... and how he managed to breathe and still yell to us I’ll never know.
Then there was a new sound, in the back ground, beeps repeating over and over again. I learned later on from a news show that those beeps were from the firemen rendered immobile. The beeps were a personal alarm system each man wore to notify others of his location and the fact that he was immobile for period of time as immobility triggers the alarm. The rest of it sounded like it does on a winters night after a huge snow, where there’s so much silence.
Again and again I opened my eyes to test and finally...... FINALLY..... I could begin to see... just a little bit.... I think I hooted, and told the man next to me in between spits that it just couldn’t be nuclear.. One we still had skin and two... we could see.......... and nuclear night is supposed to last for six months.
Thinking back on it that seems kinda silly, but it’s an honest accounting of my thought processes at that time.