Oh and his "manifesto" is absolutely terrifying. If you thought he was crazy from the vid in the OP, hoo boy, that thing pushes it WAY over the top.
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Seriously. This guy was so far gone, it's unbelievable.
If that is Elliot Rodger then to summarize he is a: jealous, envious, shy, "by nature" mixed Asian-European race, first generation immigrant to USA of divorced neglecting parents. He could not adapt to changing places, "torturing, suffocating loneliness," the struggle and competition from others that took advantage of his self-perceived "weird" physique, inferiority feelings, and vulnerability. According to him intelligent gentlemen (that he was raised to be) do not strive and are denied access to the sex life with girls, while alpha men get all they want and do so from 14 even. He regretted being denied the life he craved (to be like those alpha men and have as much sex) and blamed the girls for having this flaw of preferring them rather than him. Later he wanted to skin males and females alive for doing this to him.
This belief made him fearful, jealous, envious, and hateful of perceived alpha men to the point of wanting to become so powerful that he would stop everyone from having sex. It is increased sexual libido coupled with frustration of not having any due to insecurity feelings (social anxiety) he knew he had of approaching girls that made his life unbearable. Plus the segregation, tease from boys and girls for still being a virgin while they had it all made his self-effectiveness even worse. At one point of disparity even walking with a girl's hand together was "an epitome of gratifying perfection." At first he threw coffee and tea to couples and girls (for not smiling back) in spite (saying "How dare they insult me so?" i.e., for not smiling back), later he used the super-soaker ammoed with orange juice (because he will ruin their good time after they ruined his by not wanting to be with him). Before going to his shooting spree he tried to throw girls from the 10 foot ledge for the audacity they had to insult him back. Speaks of putting all women in concentrating camps and starving them all to death in the Epilogue.
But apparently later he managed to stop some by force, anger, and delightful spite in the end through murder in his "Day of Retrobution" where he got back at them for making him feel this bad through all those years. You see this is so because he is a "fighter" and would not accept such "injustice" done to him unlike some of his friends.
Short words: a loser's "revenge." He knew that he was talentless, short, not powerful, loser.
If I cannot have it, I will destroy it.
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If I cannot have it, no one will
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How could an inferior, ugly black boy be able to get a white girl and not me? I am beautiful, and I am half white myself. I am descended from British aristocracy. He is descended from slaves. I deserve it more.
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How could an inferior Mexican guy be able to date a white blonde girl (his primal sex fantasy object), while I was still suffering as a lonely virgin?
and one of the house mates that were bragging of not being virgin were hated because:
..of his pig-face. How could such an ugly animal have had sexual experiences with girls, and yet I haven't?
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The ugly pig kept acting as girls thought that he was more attractive than me. Hah! I am a beautiful, magnificent gentlemen and he is a low class, pig-faced thug.
Yes, I am the image of beauty and supremacy
and "I am the superior gentleman" he says to himself over and over in order to feel more confident. During planning of his "Redemption Day" he called himself "I am superior to them all. I am Elliot Rodger... Magnificent, glorious, supreme, eminent,... Divine! I am the closest thing there is to a God!"
He mentions that some Hispanics were of "low class type." Since he comes from aristocratic high British background going to a public house was not an option it seems (luckily then that is why rape should be out of the question too). But should the "cruelness of women" make a girl not say "Hi" back he would say "That foul bitch! How dare she!" and go crying on the rest room instead. The later seems a better option rather than adapting to different non UK standards? (though he did not want to go to England neither later on).
Was a good read, thanks. It reminded me how unbearable life was of not having any during my early teenage years too. But knowing that it gets this bad after a while I am glad I got married sooner and am no longer bothered from the persisting sexual cravings constantly and their frustrations.
I think he would have had more luck at a later stage (say 30's?) when women start paying attention to gentlemen more. During teenage and young adult years I think it is too much of pressure to have sex for anyone to put some consideration to gentleness as a preferred sexual facet. Someone like his father for instance should have told him that in time.
