l never attempted to commit suicide
l tried to commit suicide once
l tried to commit suicide more than once
l thought about commiting suicide but never attempted
l never thought about commiting suicide
l usually tend to commit suicide but always prevent myself
I will just say that I had a psychosis once, which was really like hell on earth. I have never done LSD, but based on the descriptions I've read, it was like a horror LSD trip lasting for several weeks.
I knew something was wrong with me, and was convinced someone was going to kill me in a most painful way soon. At that time, I considered suicide, although that threat was not objectively real (but subjectively very much so).
I'm glad our psychiatry here is very progressive, they never tried any medication or treatment on me without my consent, so I soon recovered, although the side effects were grave. But I think they're easily worth it.
But I see many cases of people who are so deep into their delusions that they won't take their meds, or that the meds are not strong enough to help them. Also, I read that clinical depression is symptomatically related to schizophrenia, when it comes to chemical malfunction in the brain. So, I guess I am lucky. The meds worked for me, and I had a pretty good general attitude. But if I hadn't been that lucky, I guess I'd have considered suicide as a viable option.
"Not learning from mistakes is worse than committing mistakes. When you don't allow yourself to make mistakes, it is hard to be tolerant of others and it does not allow even God to be merciful."
Not sayen that it would not enter my mind in the future but knock on wood...
l never thought about commiting suicide
The haggardness of poverty is everywhere seen contrasted with the sleekness of wealth, the exhorted labor of some compensating for the idleness of others, wretched hovels by the side of stately colonnades, the rags of indigence blended with the ensigns of opulence; in a word, the most useless profusion in the midst of the most urgent wants.Jean-Baptiste Say
To anyone contemplating this, or anyone who knows of anyone who may be at risk of suiciding, please, just get help. Whatever it takes.
The person who completes suicide dies once and we have no second chances, no way to bring them back, they are gone forever. Meanwhile, those left behind die a little more each day.
"God is the name by which I designate all things which cross my path violently and recklessly, all things which alter my plans and intentions, and change the course of my life, for better or for worse."
-C G Jung
Medusa, if this is not just a conversational topic, and something you are considering, I hope you get help. This isn't something to take lightly. I give you alot of **** on this board, but I certainly wouldn't want you to do anything silly.
Originally Posted by ChomskyOriginally Posted by OrphanSlug
The one thing every human on the planet should be in charge of is their own body, their own life, their own choices. It is not for us to judge when, why and how life has become utterly unbearable for someone else. Shaming them by warning them how their loved ones will suffer is particularly cruel. All of us WILL die, and when we do our loved ones WILL suffer. Will they suffer less if we die slowly, over a period of months, slowly suffocating as our lungs give out, or crying in agony as cancer consumes us, or so awash in despair after decades of hopelessness and mental ravagement over which they have no control? They can grieve now, or they can grieve later... when they grieve should be my choice, not theirs.
It infuriates me when people flippantly toss out the word "coward" to describe an anguish they personally have never endured, and could never, ever understand. How dare you judge someone else's pain, someone else's life? You are not in their skin, not in their mind, don't suffer their agony. You cannot know what they live with, and what's worse, you obviously don't even care. Just shrug, call them cowards, and feel like you are their moral and mortal superior.
Until some day it is you who is dying by inches, suffering beyond your wildest imagination, and some cold, self-righteous ass looks you in the eye, calls you a coward for wanting the agony to end, calls you selfish for not thinking of those you leave behind, stares at you as if you are nothing more than a piece of meat that has no right to make decisions for itself.
In answer to the poll, yeah, I've obviously thought a lot about suicide, because I for one will not spend my final months strapped to a respirator, gasping, waiting for the breath to finally stop, and the torture to finally end. It will not end that way for me. I will choose when, how, and where, and I will do so while I still have dignity. To those who call me a coward, may you never end up as I and so many others will... until then, **** you and your self-absorbed, ignorant hubris.
Last edited by DiAnna; 08-30-13 at 11:15 PM.