Don't ever assume you know my motivations better than I do. I have spent my entire life analyzing myself (I analyze everything) and understanding my inputs, processes, and outputs very well.
Its a fundamental misunderstand by this crowd of what actually motivates people.
I was discovering that life just simply isn't fair and bask in the unsung glory of knowing that each obstacle overcome along the way only adds to the satisfaction in the end. Nothing great, after all, was ever accomplished by anyone sulking in his or her misery.