This doesn't have crap to do with "humility," dude. I'll plainly admit that the girl I pictured is probably out of my league, at least in my present circumstances. That's exactly why I don't really date. Getting the kind of women I want requires a certain status and stability which I just don't have at the moment.
However, that's not what we're talking about right now. Right now, we're talking about simple reality.
I'm not sure, exactly, how it is that you seem to be so oblivious to this, but tons of relationships and marriages fall apart because one or the other partner lets themselves go, and the sexual spark between the two subsequently withers away and dies. Given that fact, what the Hell kind of sense would it make to try and get into a relationship with someone I'm not really that crazy about from the very start?
Physical compatibility is not some trivial thing which can simply be ignored. It's the very rare person who can overlook it. Frankly, more often than not, those who try to downplay its importance are simply lying in the interests of saying things which they think sound noble and pretty, but which they are equally well aware ultimately ring hollow.
As I said in the OP, I'm open to the possibility of that changing. I sincerely like this girl's personality, and maybe that will be enough in the long run. At the moment, however, I don't think it'd be fair to either of us to try and take this any further than the friendship it already is. I'm "just not that into" her.
Ok. My two cents. I'm going to try to actually be helpful, here.
Yes, attraction is important. But you know what?
The longer you're with someone, the less that will have anything to do with how they look.
I've totally had "Holy DAMN!" levels of compatibility with guys who were, objectively, not as attractive as me. Perhaps even pretty mediocre.
Do I see that physical gap the first time I meet them? Maybe even the second or third? Yeah, I do.
But if that chemistry is there, and I make an honest attempt to be open to it, I stop seeing it very quickly.
Sexual compatibility is not all, or even mostly, about looks. It's about presence, actions... things that have nothing to do with how they look. I've had terrible sexual chemistry with guys who look like male models. And as soon as that came to light, how they looked stopped having any meaning at all.
The "letting themselves go" thing is more than just about looks. I've been turned off by that as well, and it's destroyed my sexual desire for someone. It wasn't about the change in how they looked. Even post-"letting go," I've had great attraction to people who were less physically attractive.
It was that it seemed to be a cycle he got into every time he settled into a relationship. Sort of like, "I've got you now, so **** it." It displayed a pretty sad attitude towards his own health, but also towards our relationship. That's depressing. And a little insulting.
But what's depressing and insulting about it is not about looks.
Sex is really not about looks. Not great sex, anyway. Great sex, in a way, is much more like artistic compatibility than physicality.
You need to be open to the possibility that someone who's not a 10, or even an 8, might totally rock your world. Because they totally could. Really great sexual compatibility is a damn shame to miss out on in a relationship. It's not about getting your rocks off.
And it doesn't always hit you from "the very start." People's sexual gravitas is something that they mostly keep under wraps until it's appropriate. You don't see it right away.
If you like her enough to make this post, I think you should spend a bit of one-on-one time with her. If you don't like her even after that, just say thanks but no thanks. She'll live. So will you.
But stop believing relationships are RomComs where the attraction just hits you out of the blue the moment you lock eyes. It doesn't always.
I've even had it be the case where my brain said "no" to someone immediately, but my intuition was screaming to keep looking. My conscious brain just wasn't seeing it -- sexually, interpersonally, in any way. But I decided to go with my intuition. It's rarely wrong, and over the years, I've come to trust it even when I'm incredulous.
And that wound up being one of the best, strongest, most multifaceted connections I've ever had. It took 3 weeks of regular communication to come out. I had to work hard just to make conversation flow for those 3 weeks. But when it hit me, it hit my like a sack of bricks, and I'm so glad I didn't miss out.
Maybe the fact that you feel moved to say so many words on the issue is your intuition trying to tell you something.
Or maybe not. But it's silly not to look just because she's not a 10.