I was taught that really. Its just...well...I want to have sex, I get the urges like everyone else does, at night, every time I see a hot girl etc. and sometimes I do feel like just saying "forget it" and just going all the way. but in the end, when faced with the choice(and, at one time, I had a real chance to go all the way), it's difficult and mildly uncomfortable. Choosing to have sex before marriage just feels like it goes against who I really am.
I do thank you for the opinion, it does mean alot to me. It's just, I still couldn't choose otherwise, at least not now. There are literally hundreds of reasons why I choose this and #1 is, its just who I am, my character. Outside of the illusion of privacy, that is the internet, I one of those geeky, non-confrontational, just-wants-to-do-what's-right, kind of a person. If simply waiting untill marriage is all it takes, then I'll wait as long as I have too. Everyone close to me, everyone who I care about, has discouraged me from having sex before marriage. I guess thats another reasonl I love my family and I want to make them proud. During High School, some friends did try to find some girls for me at times(full-grown, professionally-paid girls, if you know what I mean). I turned them down, again and again. Then one said, and I still remember, "I respect you, I really do. Anytime you want some, you can tell us and we'll hook you up, but, we won't encourage it, we won't push you".
