There's no other whites here who have as deep an experience of racism or the journey therefrom as I do
. Read that, and understand that I hate racism as much as any white man can. I can't pretend for a moment that I've walked a mile in your moccasins, but I do my level best to understand, to help heal, to keep people from sliding back into that abyss of racism that I was so close to in my youth.
Now you're right to an extent about the conditioning of people to be racist simply by the way they were raised...but you're not giving credit to the significant majority of whites who are earnestly trying (with varying levels of success) to overcome their conditioning. And here's something else - have you considered the possibility that there are "good racists"? The very phrase sounds perverse, doesn't it? But here's something else I wrote
almost four years ago:
...my mother is not evil. She’s got a heart of gold. I’ve seen her happily give bushels of food from our garden to blacks who couldn’t afford a trip down to the local Piggly-Wiggly supermarket. She was eager to talk with our almost completely-black clientele at the used clothing store we used to have in a small town eight miles down the road, and more than once gave away merchandise to those in greatest need. She trusts her daily life to the black caregivers that drop by to bathe and clean her. She knows that she is not racist…in her own opinion. By today’s standards she certainly is racist, but by her own standards, she’s not racist at all.
Was she a bad person? No. She was racist by your standards and mine, but pay attention to that last line - she was trying the best she knew how to be a good person
. She's one of the "good racists" I write about, like the men in my family who would risk their lives without a second thought to save a black man...but as soon as that black man was out of earshot, out would come all the n-word jokes and assumptions.
It takes time, guy. I know you may very well have experiences that would make you want to hate whites - and having seen and done the things that I have, I couldn't blame you. But hopefully, you can take the words I'm giving you to help you to want to hate so much, because that hate will eat away at your gut and affect everything you do in your life. Understand that while there are still so many white Americans that are racist, most white Americans are trying their level best to not be racist. Will we as a whole become "not racist" in this generation? Of course not. But with each generation, we will become less and less racist. It takes more time and patience than you and I will have in our lifetimes, but that time will come. Have faith, and do not hate.